Mornings in Chicago

Over the weekend I went to Chicago very early in the morning, we are talking 3:00 A.M. early, and let me tell you what, it is an awesome experience to be in a major city when it is completely dead. The tall buildings around you, complete silence, the air is still, maybe even smells kind of nice. It’s the complete opposite of what it is during the day and that’s why it’s such a cool experience. Anyways I went with Mullen for one morning and we just drove around, but when we got back Naldi really wanted to go. We left Sunday morning at 2:30 we leave campus and stop to get a good ol’ five hour energy drink to keep me awake (I’m driving) and drove off to Chicago on an empty highway 57. We parked by the parks and walked around for a couple of hours taking random pictures, relieving ourselves in the bushes, and trying to find a way onto the statue in the middle of the fountain. We finally headed over to the yacht club where we watched a B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L sunrise, a great way to top off a good morning. I did not get much sleep over the weekend but it was so worth it. Next weekend my dad flies in on Saturday night so we can go to the BMW championship on Sunday. It will be my first time going to a PGA event and I am soooo stoked to see Tiger Woods, Woods by three strokes on the field is my prediction. Saturday night I’m bringing my dad to Gino’s East in Chicago, it is the best pizza I have ever had and hopefully he agrees.

I’m just going to say it, AT&T is awful. I barely get service anywhere on campus where as my Verizon friends have 3-4 bars. It was even bad when I was at home in my basement, I couldn’t take a phone call down there so I would always have to run upstairs. Anyways, if you try and call me at school consider yourself lucky if I pick up and answer.




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Lately I have been really anxious, on edge, a little lonely, quick to anger, straight up pissed, and lost. I have this underlying feeling that time is running out, that I need to start making my moves now or my opportunities will be gone. I feel the need to make big decisions now because it’s going to take several years to put those decisions into action. I’ve never really felt lost; never really felt like I didn’t know what was going on inside my head or around me, never this confused. I feel like I’m quickly heading into a dead end and I need to make my left or right hand turn as soon as possible because who knows if another chance will come my way. Who do I have by my side and who isn’t…why aren’t those people by my side anymore? How did I mess up that badly? I’ve gone from thinking I knew what was going on, knew that everything is under control, to feeling so lost and disoriented…running in circles. What am I to do? There are people that I really want to talk to but…I can’t, some don’t want to talk because I bug them or annoy them, some just flat out don’t like me, some just don’t have the time or wouldn’t understand. Then there are people who are always willing to talk but to be honest I don’t want to talk to them, I shutdown and zone out. There are times that I just want to cry, maybe it’s because I feel like I have lost control of everything due to me messing up or not paying attention. The world is flying by me and I’m standing still, I don’t know what to do.